the other day,

Mom: How can anyone who grew up eating kimchi be refined!

:D It's damn funny. She hates koreans omgg and this means she hates DBSK but it's funny, 'cause she grew up in a Korean Special Zone and apparently they were all ugly.

i am bleeeediiiinggggg (: so i had to tell my dad, because... well it's complicated. funny! funny!

me: DAD I NEED MONEY (to go into fairprice and buy...things)
dad: why? here.
me: okay, listen. i'm going to tell you once, and if you get it you get it, and if you don't... then you don't. i am going into fairprice. i will buy something, come out, and go back into the toilet. can?
dad: OKAY GO

and he proceeds to hobo around embarrassedly. i have a nice family and nice people around me and should not be clingy. but gah blocks are over and it was very disappointing in general. i tried crying and screaming yesterday; it worked. i'm trying to strike a balance between going insane while trying to achieve perfection and going back to what i used to be, but isn't everyone? nyeh.

it's okay the holidays are coming and i've an entire month to mug and have a nice life :D